in the air… anyway, the melody line keeps on slipping past my mind. Sigh.

Songwriting is hard… because it must be catered for the vocalist, the range and the type of things that the person can do with their voice. It is hard, been trying to listen to so many varied type of things, to spark some idea, but I guess I am just way too tired, with the constant late nights at the moment, to satisfactorily spring a tune out from air.

Besides, music is one area which I can describe but not show or explain it out technically. It is just too subjective for me. In fact, I play much better when my eyes are closed, rather than when they’re open. A melody is like a thought that lingers at the peripheral part of your mind, and just when you think it catch a whiff of its semblance, it just leaves a faint echo… imprint that is just so faint, it just creates this feeling of ‘lost’ness. It’s depressing. Those who have tried, knows how it feels like.

The other question that poses a conundrum to me is: melody first or lyrics! Hahahahahaha… no easy answer here. It really depends on the moment. Yes, the dreaded ‘moment’… artistry moment.

I’m really playing it by ear at the moment. I wish I had more guidance. But that would only expose my ignorance. I’m ignorant. Don’t make it public. :P

I actually looked through some Rachmaninov Piano Sonata,  sheets to find some inspiration… humming the tune along the score. Hahahahah… how accurate it is, don’t ask :P Listening to some classical, instrumental, pop, rock, heavy metal, rap, and whatever I can bear with…

Why? Cause I have a big event coming up, and I feel like writing a song. That’s why. I have a good vocalist. And I won’t blow this opportunity… last grasp of a stupid, immature, teenage dream. Hah.

Did I ever tell you that I am always happy that I finished my piano studies. I learnt a lot from it. True, that improv was nil in the studies, but the years of discipline paid off. Really… my finger muscles are quite ok… but of course there is much to learn and build, but the foundation is there (can’t believe I used two ‘but’s)…

Grateful for my parents (mum) to force me finish it when I was in form 4. That sort of discipline really taught me a lot on having a good attitude to finish what one has started. I’m rambling… and Wilson Phillips is playing in my ears now. Next… Rach piece.